Live in Light

The Grump

A few mornings ago I woke up in a Grump - that's a polite way of describing it, my husband said it was more like I woke going for the jugular. Small things seemed huge annoying obstacles and I was irate at everyone and everything. After about 40 minutes I remembered that it felt different when I woke up. Usually the first thing I notice or do when I wake is feel immense gratitude and love. My body stretches and greets my spirit energy and visa versa, and, I feel very joyful about the day. This day when I woke a little voice that was well hidden said “its not you” but it was very quiet and I angrily ignored it.

So after about 40 minutes I went for a bike ride (with my wise husband reminding me that I was probably experiencing this as it might to helpful to share). As per usual he was spot on.

I was shown the Grump was someone else’s (ancestral) and my higher self was welcoming it in - the image I was given when I asked why I had let this happen was of a very Loving Being blowing it into my bubble of reality - in some ways it reminded me of Roald Dahl’s BFG. The hunt was on to find out why and what I was expecting to learn. Lesson Number One: self accountability - we only experience things we have given permission for - sometimes its a matter of finding where/how/ and why we gave permission.

The first thing I noticed was my cellular form (i.e. the cells of my body). With this Grump they were scared and my adrenal / nervous response had really shut them down. They were primed to run away or shut down and had stopped looking for more loving fun alternatives. It was quite startling to see how quickly something like this Grump had altered my receptors and shut down the possibility of joy or at least a loving response! When I usually tune into my body I hear a joyful chatter of my cells communicating, cooperating and generally getting on with whatever their functions are. There was nothing like that. Lesson Number Two was underway. We really do hurt ourselves most when we are in a grump! We limit our ability to have a joyful time and our physical body is under so much more strain!

After witnessing this I asked for the Grump to be released from my body. I felt this smokey energy being taken out (almost sucked out) and the relief from my cells was instant. Suddenly they were chatting again and instead of focusing on things that had been bugging me, I was able to enjoy the bike ride. I set myself little goals (getting up a hill in 4th gear for example) and felt my muscles rise to the challenge. I came back home in a much better mood than when I left. Lesson Number Three: when feeling challenged give yourself space to tune into what is really going on.

I had a sense that there was more to this than I had cleared. Whilst quite remarkable to have cleared the energy, this felt a bit surface level and I am used to going way deeper. Sure enough I could feel an old familiar pattern attempting to emerge. An old pattern that holds onto resentments, creates drama by going over them again and inadvertently creating neural pathways that reinforce the old genetic pattern of being. During the day I simply observed threads of old thought patterns I have mostly cleared.I set the intention of being shown the origins of this during my dream space.

In this dream I had a beautiful Being take me to the Genetic Level (4th Plane of Existence) and show me to wrap love around my grandmother. In my dream I was doing this with anger and resentment and it wasn’t working. She was responding with sending lightening bolts of rage. I woke at the tail end of this dream and asked what about free agency (you can only do something to someone if they give permission and in the dream I had not asked permission - I just wrapped my arms around). So instead I asked Creator what was most helpful and was shown that this lineage did not know how to walk or exist with Love. I asked for a healing on this and instantly an elevator of Light from Creator was there and my grandmother walked straight into it and up to Creator. The shards of lightening and the fear and anger disappeared, and, my heart space opened up with Love and a very peaceful feeling. Lesson Number Four was being reminded: Sometimes our ancestors are unaware of how to change and once shown are ready to learn and evolve.

I’m aware there are still more aspects of this to come and am allowing this to happen with Love and ease. In the meantime the take home points are: when you are feeling stressed it really is you that hurts the most. Take some time to look at what is really going on and give yourself permission to transform the belief systems underlying it.

There are many fabulous resources available to assist you to transform your belief systems. When I worked as a clinical psychologist working with beliefs via cognitive behaviour therapy was my main modality. I have since found the ThetaHealing technique to be the most effective way to do so as it accesses beliefs on four levels (core or this life, genetic, history and soul) - many of which we are unconscious of and other modalities I studied seemed unaware of them.

Much Love and Light to you and have a fabulous loving day.